Due Date.

Tomorrow, May 7th, is my due date. I am left with empty arms and an empty womb once again.

I want to scream. I want to cry. I want to break things.

I want to know why life isn't fair. Why there are babies being dumped in dumpsters or abused... but we pray and try and we don't get one. I would do anything to carry another child to term. To be suffering from morning sickness. To see my tummy grow. To go through another delivery. To spend those early morning hours feeding my child while the rest of the world is quiet. Those things are what I wish for with all my heart.

I am so frustrated I could just scream. I do NOT understand why this has to happen. My heart just feels like it is in a million pieces.